I was raised a Christian and in the belief that God would forgive me I did terrible things. At the age of 19 I decided I did not want to be a Christian and instantly felt a weight lift off my shoulders. After reading the Bhagavad Gita I came to the realization if God exists his essence is in these pages. Over the next couple years I experimented with drugs made a series of bad choices for a girl who never really loved me and simultaneously slipped in and out of depression. So here I am 21 broke and alone I've given up on the illusion we call happiness but I have hope I can find peace. I want to feel content with my life and where it's going. I started doing yoga and I chant to Ganesha and Shiva almost every night. How can I get to that place of mental stability we call peace?